So, this post I just uploaded is about depression, something with which I am very familiar. This is something I have struggled with for a very long time and it is a lonely life. I have a husband, kids, a good job, pets, and a home, so why do I feel so dark? I don’t have friends which hurts but I know it’s my fault.
I can sit here and list all of the reasons why the world would be better off without me, but if I had to think of just 2 reasons why it wouldn’t I would be stuck for an answer.
I am taking medication and most days it works, but this past week has not been good. Physically I am having some problems and I think that contributes. My mobility is limited which is hard because I worked so hard to lose about 150 pounds and now my hip is bad. Arthritis at the age of 52? I shouldn’t have trouble getting into my car, or getting up off the couch. I want to walk; I want to feel what life is like without pain. I have migraines and daily headaches, now my joints ache like I’m 80.
Pain messes with you. It’s a tough life being in physical pain all the time. I can’t share how I am feeling. I don’t want to feel like I am constantly complaining.
I can’t get anything for the pain. It makes me question why. What is the purpose of a life that is filled with misery?
Sounds like I need to get some help. Practice what I preach.
The Life of a Black Sheep 